insider

it's been a blue nile evening. i've been listening to old stuff that i love, but have just found their latest album, high, which has a song on it called because of toledo. thought these lyrics were strangely apt for en empty sunday evening:

Because of Toledo
I got so worried and stayed clean
The pick ups in the wild prairies
The shadows dancing in between
Girl leans on the jukebox
In a pair of old blue jeans
Says I live here but I don't really live anywhere

in actual fact i've only ever been to toledo once but somehow it rings true...
besides distracting myself with soulful music, i'm rewriting the chapter on genet, and counting the days until thanksgiving. this week is job application week and i'm longing to know where i'm meant to be now this too-long adventure is drawing to a close.

posted by Joanna Ruth @ 3:34 AM

today i panicked quietly but no one noticed.

posted by Joanna Ruth @ 5:44 PM

so i'm back in the midwest, with minor jet-lag and chronic writer's block. add to this some kind of bizarre obsession with the photos of a&a's wedding (which i have now looked at about 50 times since my return on sunday) and you have a recipe for an unproductive afternoon, if ever i saw one. and i should know ...
according to people on the bus this morning, it is currently unseasonably warm here, and i wonder whether the weather can contribute to feelings of being displaced.
whilst on the subject of the weather, i should point out that this also happens to be the name of my brother's new band, who are on course to work up a storm, if you ask me. sibling biases aside, they really are rather good.

posted by Joanna Ruth @ 8:52 PM